No judgement or anger here.
I see you as a person in pain who went back to the only thing she knew how to do, S.
but...it's time to learn some new stuff.
Like I said to you in your other thread S - you need help.
Drinking is not a solution to your problems and neither is your sisters klonopin.
Find a good doctor and a therapist - they are out there - even for people without much money....
and together with them start to work on the things in your life that bring you back here to this point again and again.
Please.
You deserve better than the life you're settling for.
D