I had an urge on Saturday night (and this after two AA meetings and meeting with my sponsor). For a while, I sat on my couch and did nothing but stew in my sick thoughts. Of course those thoughts made me miserable and I believe would have led me to a drink, had I not taken action.
I now realize that getting sober and staying that way is only possible through action regardless of what program you choose to follow.
We’ve got to do whatever it takes.
Hang in there.