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Have been very depressed and anxious today, out of nowhere. I've been arguing with myself all day over drinking it all away. So far, so good, tho the day's not over yet and the depression is getting worse. I don't want to go "back there" cause I don't want to go thru withdrawal again - I've done that enough for one lifetime. Just don't know how to deal with my feelings without that 'numbing agent'. If I weren't so anxious I'd take another nap, but the anxiety is keeping me from relaxing enough to sleep.

I'm just venting, really. I live alone so have no one here to talk to. I'm lonely. I don't want to drink but don't know what else to do.