Originally Posted by
janitorking 
i just happened to be pondering on whether or not there could possibly be a hell worse than living with untreated alcholism.
so far i've got nothin.
i'm grateful to be sober today and i'm praying for another 24 hours for everyone here including myself.
I've been there and I know where you are coming from. The good news is that you do have a choice whether you take that first drink. I suggest you get into AA if you aren't already. Listen, learn, and apply what you learn. It does get better if you stay sober, and believe it or not, it can get worse if you keep drinking. I wish you all the best.