Hello!
I'm a drunk with an entirely unoriginal story. I got some stress! I got life reasons! But in reality, I'm just a dork with problems and really bad ways of dealing with them.
That ended yesterday. I'm standing up and figuring it out. I'm not in meetings (the schedule is pretty light where I live), so I'm finding support everywhere I can. This board is part of it. I plan on reading, writing, and making this recovery a part of me inside and out. I haven't told my wife or my family. Afraid to disappoint-- I'm sure I'm not the only one who has felt that.
I'm 28. The best years of my life are ahead of me, and I want to not be wincing through them.
If I sound strong in this message, it's a facade. I'm terrified I'll start drinking again. I used to wonder if I could control it. Now I know I can't. And that's scary. Today is day 2. Almost 48 hours.
Love and thanks for the venue,
New.
PS-- my tomorrow night is free and I'm taking suggestions for non-alcohol related activities to engage in... anyone seen any good movies lately?
