Thank you for the support, especially from the moms. It helps to know that there are others who have been in the same situation. Most of the time I feel very alone...I don't know how common it is to be a mom with a drinking problem, but there are days I definitely feel like I am the only one.
Maybe someone could offer their thoughts on this...I have been to AA meetings off and on for the past eight years. I had a sponsor at one point, and (though I'm sure it wasn't intentional) she kind of turned me off to AA. Throughout our conversations I learned that she was not actually an alcoholic, but had started attending meetings because she had another compulsive type behavior that required a 12 step program. I had revealed a lot to her and ended up feeling disappointed, like she didn't really know what I was going through, and then I just kind of lost faith in AA altogether.