the first meeting I went to........was really small just a hand full of women but I sat and listened and then I opened my mouth to speak and all I could do was cry...........noone there judged me they all handed me tissue and sat and waited for me to be done crying...then I merely told them my name and that my husband whos an addict and had about 10 years clean.........had relapsed with his doc Crack
I was devastated and its been a rough road since then almost 4 years ago..........lots of ups and the downs inbetween...........its the rollercoaster ride they talk about here.......
but hes an addict and I cant change that ...........all I can do is try to work on me......
I'm sorry your going thru this but know we are here for you and those at the meetings are too............your not alone
your family and friends may not understand what your going thru right now but there are many people that do................
(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))