keep breathing honey -
if you can - try to make that meeting - I truly believe it will help you - even if you just hear that you have other people in your area that have experienced similiar things as you that are available if you need help.
Repeating the Serenity Prayer also helps:
God Grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot Change
The Courage to change the things I can
and the Wisdom to know the Difference.
And even when that feels like it is too much to say - I can just focus on the words:
God, Serenity, Courage, Wisdom
HUGS,
Rita