Tyler, Thanks for your post and sharing your history. What a road you've been on.
HuskyP, Hope you are feeling better and not so down on yourself. Please let us know how your day back at work went with the black eye and all. BTW, I know what it's like to feel lonely. I'm married and have 2 wonderful kitties at home. But, right now, all my spouse does is irritate me to death. Everything he does just p****s me off. I'd rather be alone. Not so I can drink, because I really don't have any cravings right now. (Tyler, I think I might look up Naltrexone for future reference. Do you need a prescription?) My cats are the only things that give me comfort nowadays. Husky, do you have any pets? If not, you could get a goldfish or something alive that won't judge you and just be thankful to get fed.
Look forward to hearing about your work days.