Thanks for this today. I have been feeling envious of my exABF today so this posting helped a bit.
I went to a ski event this weekend, but had to go alone since no one was around to go with. I really have started hating going to things by myself as I get older, but that's just the way it is.
My ex's birthday is Tues, and he's having a party and has a whole slew of people coming, including the ex that I hated. I have been feeling really depressed since I got home since I heard that because here I am having to go to something alone because I can't find anyone, and there he is having a huge party at his house with a ton of people. It really makes me feel incredibly alone and like I was hugely lacking somehow. I'm still envying his seemed happiness with his new life and I seem to have been having trouble finding it. I know I have to work on me, but it's just a huge weight on my back I can't seem to get rid of.
This post helped me rethink things. I'm still depressed, but I'm working on it.