Hey, neo.
I feel that way at times...I do miss getting drunk...just the fun part, though.
The fun comes with a price I can't afford.
Hanging on is the only thing I can do when that happens and I'm glad to say that as more time passes the less I think about it...the less I want to do it.
I'm a pretty goofy person anyways...I use my humor to get by. I'm optimistic that things will continue to improve...and I know I have to be patient.
Please don't take a break from SR. When you are struggling is when you need to be here the most. Stick it out, neo.