Hi again Keltie
Being resentful of other drinkers bought me back time and again to drinking...until I nearly died from it...honestly, I've been too happy to be alive since to be resentful.
There's a lot of things I didn't ask for or want to deal with - alcoholism is just the latest in a long line.
Some people are diabetic, some people are allergic to certain foods....
You and I are alcoholic.
It's a given - so we have to live with it the best we can.
If you feel anti social not drinking can you try different social situations? Ones where drinking isn't as much of a focus?
Ask yourself - what do you think you're missing? write it out.
Look at how true that list is.
Then match that list with your experience of drinking and the trouble it's led you to.
If your life isn't better without that drinking insanity...I'll be very surprised.
D