Welcome keltie. I am glad you found us too.
I am not a drinker. But I can relate to feeling a little envious of others who get to do things I use to be able to do.
I thought I was boring or couldnt have fun sober either.
But as time went by, and I just relapsed myself and havent really had any considerable clena time, But I became more out going as time passed.
I learned to just be my regular goofy self and not care if people thought I was silly or weird.
If you had 6 yrs sober before. I have no doubt you can do it again.
What did you do before to have fun? Did you still feel that way the whole 6 yrs?
Hang in there and I hope to see more of you.