Ditto, ditto, ditto: get back up on the horse and keep moving forward!
I have known so very many people who struggled like crazy their first couple of years until finally they got it! I'm thinking of one woman in particular in my old home group in Seattle. One of the funniest, nicest women you will ever meet and so sincere in her desire to be free of alcohol. But the woman would get, max, 60 days and then she'd slip. This went on for a year and a half and, frankly, I could sense the group losing hope for her. But- you just never know, really, what will work for someone. She kept showing up at meetings- and never tried to hide her slips. So she was persistent AND honest.
Last time I was in Seattle, Virginia was celebrating two years sober!
So keep on keeping on and resist the urge to hate yourself- that'll feed the disease. And consider picking up the darn phone and calling sober friends next time you're feeling like drinking.