Welcome to the family BG. I found SR by googling "health problems of heavy drinkers" (still wouldn't call myself an "alcoholic" at that point!). When I came here I was shocked there were so many people just like me. I didn't have anyone to relate to in my daily life. The more I read here, the light began to dawn for me & I finally got the courage to give it up. I self-medicated too, to help with anxiety & social phobia. Hiding from my problems made them so much worse.
When I was 32, deep inside I knew I needed to quit, but I put it off for many more years. You're doing something about it now, and avoiding a living hell down the road. I'm happy that you've reached this conclusion. Your post sounds hopeful, and you have so much to look forward to. Congratulations on this decision you've made! We'll be looking forward to hearing more about you.
WagginTail - it's great to meet you too! Stay here with us and you'll learn so much. Life is about to change for you.