Congratulations on your sober time SeekingPeace
I too know what you mean about the desire to be sober being so intense it can be scary...I think many alcoholics are all or nothing people...and without alcohol to numb us out, it can be even more scary...
But like Anna says it's all for a great purpose...the best....
I knew I was onto something when I eventually realised I was focusing on just living life rather than drinking or not drinking...
it does all level out...
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