Rose, I'm sorry that you did not receive the love, security and comfort you needed as a child.
I admire your goal of creating a safe and comforting life for yourself. I believe you still can.
I believe you can, just as I believe I can too. I'm 5 years younger than you. I am learning that the little girl in me has been craving love, security, and comfort for a long time. I kept wanting my relationship partners to give me what I needed. I kept hoping "this time will be different". I kept trying to make my partners see that my needs weren't being met.
As the analogy goes: I kept going to the hardware store and asking for a fresh loaf of bread. ugh!
You are loving and loveable!
Picture yourself as that little girl again. Hold her gently in your hands. See her in your hands? Your hands. Your loving hands are what she needs. Place her somewhere near your heart and take care of her.
Peace and ((hugs))