Trish, I read this yesterday but was speechless. What could I possibly say that might help? I came here this morning to all these amazing comments & I have little to add to all this wisdom and love that's been showered on you. I'd like to add my support & love. When I first got here, you were already here with your brutally honest & open way of looking at the world & sizing things up. You helped me alot.
I agree that something seems different this time. You say you've talked the talk, but maybe you never truly felt your own words deep in your soul. It is possible that really was your last dance with the devil. It can be!! I SO hope it's over.