My father is big with AA. He doesnt go anymore but still lives his sober life accordingly. He keeps telling me I need to call someone and talk to someone when I am feeling like that. But I dont go anywhere to meet others like me. I get what you all are saying. I let my personal opinions get in the way of that. Well I know now that my opinion isnt important. I need to do what works. And everything I have done so far isnt it.
I dont know how I am going to dig myself out of this one. But I am going to do it. And I will be calling hotlines for rides and all that stuff. I need to swallow my pride and stop being so self riteous. (SP) I have a serious ego and yes I can be very very arrogant. And I hate that about myself.
I need to take things slower. I tried doing way too much the past few months. School and trying to be the perfect employee. Trying to make up for years of being liek this in months.
I have stopped all that thinking too much tho. Thats a load off my mind.