Trish, why have you been so quiet around SR lately? I thought maybe things were going well...you've made some big changes and commitments.
I couldn't stay stopped from drinking until I got help for depression.
It was hard for me to admit something was wrong with my brain. I was afraid to make a call, but I did...and I'm glad I did. I talked to someone about things I didn't want to talk about...I accepted help for a very real illness that needs to be medicated with mood stabilizers (this stuff cannot make me high...I cannot abuse what I'm on).
Maybe I'm totally wrong...but I got the impression you were dancing around the whole depression (or something else) thing. I know it's really none of my business and I've mentioned this to you before...I shouldn't be mentioning it again...but I am. If you don't want to read this kind of thing from me (about mental health concerns) please let me know and I'll shut the fvck up. I tend to repeat myself and I really don't mind being called out on it.
I hope you'll take good care of yourself, Trish.