I'mBack
It's been a couple years since I've been here. I hope everyone's doing well. My situation is crap again.
After about 2 years clean, J has gotten hooked on Clonopin after two stressed induced psychotic episodes where he ended up in the hospital. The Clonopin was supposed to be a non-narcotic, non-addictive medicine. He's been hooked for about 8 months with a few clean periods in there.
I left him over a month ago and am staying at my parents house right now. I can't deal with it, I've been through it too many times to do it again and I don't have the energy.
I'm also pregnant and I have something more important to think about. I can't raise a child in that situation.
I told him he had one chance to get it right while I was gone before I filed for legal separation so I can get on medicade to have the baby. I don't talk to him because I don't want to hear the words without seeing the actions.
I'm just too darn tired to deal with it this time and now I know better so I left. I had to get myself OUT of the situation because I can't handle living with addiction.
I hate that he's doing this knowing a child is on the way but there's nothing I can do to change it. I've broken my worn copy of Co-dependent No More out again and am going through it again.