Neo,
You've gotten such good advice allready, I don't know what I can add. Don't throw away 121 days for a cheap thrill that's only temporary.
I threw away 40 or so days, it's 7:00am here and I'm drunk and I hate it. This incident is only strengthening my resolve to get back on the road to recovery.
It's very easy to say, "don't pick up that first drink." That's the easy part. The mental battle that goes on in your head, that's the dirty, bloody, hand-to-hand combat of recovery.
The members here say it's worth it though. It's worth every bit of anguish, tears, and heartache. I know deep down they are right.
I will find my way, and I will keep a light on for you so you can find the way also.