yes everything u said is how is is. i think i'll have one drink and then stop...but i don't till the bottles empty and then if i've not passed out i go shops either walk or drive and get another.. i've tried 2 stop on my ownand failed. i forget things. i black out. i use copke to sovber me up and then drink more, then i use heroin to make me calm and help me sleep. i am getting wore each dat. i work 30hrs a wk managed 4 ths wk. if this does't kill me then being homeless, without job, will.