I'm just freking cause she's coming to my house, the one place i can be me and not wear the mask..but now i feel exposed and drinking. I guess she has seen it before, but only meet me once and I couldn't speak to her so my drug counsellor did. feel like everything is going to go wrong, that everything will be out there for all to see and i'm not sure i like it. i wanted to stop on my own, i can't, but i didn't want everyone to know how bad i was. sorry just being silly i guess. panic. ty for ur replies. i'm sorry.