No offense to any of the dissenters but I am one of the ones who still has days when I want to "get high as a kite" (I love the way you put that)
Life is a devil sometimes and being another opiate/pillhead who has unfortanately relapsed a lot I can say with certainty that days 30-45 are often the WORST due to the long length of time it takes for pills to come out of your body. The thing is Ashley you sound like you've got a really good attitude- you are not going to drink or use no matter what. Stay with that! I have been through hell with pills over the last few years, in and out of the program, and I am sure you know it doesn't get any better. One minute you are popping pills in your home and before you know it you are prostituting yourself literally and figuratively out on the streets, nothing matters but the next fix. I want to use so bad some days but I WILL NOT. It gets SO much better, I know that too. Stay strong, those pills will only bring you a living hell in the end!