Hi Gb,
Today is day 11 for me and it finally happened, I knew it would. I finally feel I'm over the detox period and today the sun woke me up, and it feels good for a change. It takes time, so keep trying and just don't drink today. I've been going to AA and it helps me stay focused on recovery, and I'm reading the bb everyday, which helps me connect to others and know, from the stories in the back, that people do recover and there's 12 steps to help us do that. Maybe that would help?
Keep trying, never give up and be true to yourself.