Old 11-09-2009, 09:32 PM
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shaun00
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Reading through your posts ive gotta say im saddened hearing your experience and your perception of the fellowship of aa..

step two for me was all about willingness and having an open mind....the step says "believe"...and "came"......it doesnt say "faith" and it doesnt say "now"

Once it was pointed out to me that i was seeing stuff in the step that wasnt there i could move foward...."Coming to believe"..with time that i could have a "faith" in a new perception of god..

I started to get some idea of how insane i was while discussing step one with my sponsor
i was pointed toward the "jay walker" in the bb...a tragic parable.....but incredibly similar to my self destructive life style.

i hope you continue to search for a sponsor that can guide you.
there are a good few here that i consider to give sound..... 12 step direction.
ago.cubile..barb.....many more.....i hope you find some direction with the post you find here.
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