here -
welcome to SR!
I'm glad to see you're considering a program of recovery.
There comes a point in our drinking that stopping on our own just isn't a realistic option any longer. I think to approach recovery with the same energy (amount of) that we drank is the only way to bring the momentum to a halt, then reverse the destruction.
I found that in Alcoholics Anonymous.
I have supplemented my Program of recovery with the fellowship and friendships I've made here on Soberrecovery, and it's made all the difference for me.
I hope you'll find the help and support that I've received here as well.
And I really hope you'll give AA an honest chance.