Thanks!
Well, I have spoken to a therapist and she basically told me I had Depression and was drinking to self-medicate. She also sugested AA but she prescribed me anti-depressanst (Effexor) which I was on for a while. It initially helped with sleeping, stress etc but I can't say it helped at all in removing the urge to drink. Still, I was able to not drink for about 6 weeks after I saw her. Once it was time to renew the prescription i just kindof put it off. Within a week or so was drinking, a little bit. Then eventually back full-tilt inot the destructive binge drinking and dark clouds.
I'm going to see a new therapist next week. I think I just have a real heavy amount of stuff to talk about, and I can't seem to unoad it on freinds or family.