Praying for you today, Suzette. You've offered kind words and support in the past when I've been there and here I go right back at you. :ghug3
It's the weekend now, so I'm sure you're probably trying to hold out until tomorrow to call the doc. Please don't wait til then to get help, though, if you feel you can't.
Do you have any other support system there? Maybe doing something with a good friend or a family member who care/knows what's going on can get you out of the house or hang with you for a while?
Thank you for sharing (((Suzette)))