Jesse, welcome and good luck. If I couldn't attend a meeting, I would certainly get online and read about others experiences in sobriety. Strap in and get ready for the ride of your life. Recovery is a world of laughter and tears. It is a non-stop adventure into what your life can truly be. It is an amazing experience. Today I am most grateful for the return of the ability to feel my emotions instead of numbing them under a layer of drugs/alcohol. Even when I am sad it is a real feeling. I have neve laughed so hard and so long as I have in the company of other recovering people. We have a lot of fun on this very serious journey. Hope to see you back again. John in Oklahoma