well this sucks.
haha. that took me about 30 seconds to type. i hate this period in between realizing that i have a problem and actually getting to a doctor to start my detox. it's like i have an excuse to drink. i know i don't but i drink anyway. i have been drinking for about 26 hours straight with a couple random "naps". haha. i had the swine flu or something going on with my health this week and missed a bunch of work and now they're telling me that i'm off the schedule for the whole next week and i'm worried they are firing me and i think that would be the worst thing possible to happen to me in the situation i'm in. so of course i am getting ****faced all by myself and feeling like a total ***hole. blah blah blah don't want to type anymore. just want to talk to someone.