Hello,
You can download a copy of the Big Book here:
Big Book AA | Self-HelpSoftware.com
Pay particular attention to page 44, it asks some questions that will help you determine if you are an alcoholic. If you are an alcoholic, AA may be able to help you. It is not the only game in town but it is one that works for many who try what is in the Big Book.
Trust God
Clean House
Help others
Are these hard ideas to get behind?