Too much of a good thing is bad - like alcohol.
Too much of a bad thing is good - like suffering.
It sounds like you have too much suffering in your life right now. You can choose to look at it as a gift or a burden.
The 4 paradox's;
1. You must suffer to get well.
2. You must surrender to win.
3. You must give it away to keep it.
4. You must die to be reborn.