Jason, your feelings are valid. No one can tell you how to feel or react to anyone else. As in any group of people, there are some who will rub us the wrong way, right, wrong or indifferent. Right now, you are probably very confused and scared. I was in the beginning also, to be honest, it took me more than a few tries to get and stay sober. Please, keep comming here and talking. It will become clear to you what you want and need to do with your life and recovery. We are not here to judge you, just welcome you and support you in your effort to get sober.
Cathy