I failed...so down
I failed myself tonight. My dad died tonight. I drank...I lost.
I have nothing but numbness and sadness. I am so young to have lost both parents at 37 years old. My dad was many things...but not a dad. My mom died 8 years ago of lung cancer. My dad dealt, I guess I will deal now...so numb. I will drink tonight for the sake of drinking and no other purpose.
My 2nd wedding aniversary is on Sunday. Sad state...can't say it's exciting either right now.
sigh....:praying