You didn't mention being in a program of recovery -
it's times like these that we really 'lean' on our recovering friends...
I know it does nothing for me to say
that when we're in our disease -
we pick some fairly terrible partners
to confirm our own negative self-concept.
no matter what it was
that caused the breakup
when we honestly look at our part in the relationship
it's nothing like the fairy tale we drank ourselves into believing.
I agree that this might well be for the best.
I hope you won't give up.
I hope you'll at least keep posting here - there's plenty here to talk to!