Good job! Keep up the good work. Find what works for you. It might be that AA is the thing. There are counselors out there. Mine's been a Godsend. There's groups. SR is fantastic. I've made some good friends here and we share the journey and our experiences and inspirations. Count your blessings every day, starting with being sober. There will be hard days, but you can get through them. You deserve to be sober and have a quality life.