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Old 11-05-2009, 04:09 PM
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sweetnovember
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Join Date: Dec 2007
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thanks for the support

I went to AA for alot of those six months and then stopped going. Got kind of burned out on the sad stories. Left feeling depressed and sad for everybody. I was also concerned about anonymity given my job.

I started drinking again at an annual convention. Everyone was partying and I thought why not. I only had one but it started the cycle again and I bought my favorite drink and started having a few every night after work.

I guess I considered myself pretty functional. Got promotions, always went to work etc... but I would wake up feeling heavy headed and also worried about what long term effects this was having.

I didn't feel like I was doing the right thing but it helped with the anxiety I felt with the load I was carrying.

Dealing with that (the anxiety ) is the hard part of staying off alcohol for me.
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