Payton, I've read pretty much everything you have posted since you've joinged SR and I have to say you seem to know what you need to do. It's just taking those final steps to get there. If it wasn't for this site and just being able to get on and realize that I'm not the only one who has these problems I don't know where I would be now. This place keeps me on the right path. Just knowing that their are others like me who struggle everyday makes a difference. I'm not alone. With all the encouragement you have received (and given) I think you are well on your way. I wish you the best!