wow that pretty much sums it up, i didn't say anything cause I felt like a freak if i did..how can someone be scared of talking, looking at people, worrying about being "dry"...I rarely even talk to my DIP worker, I make little eye contact with people and those that "know my problems" i make no eye contact what so ever...I worry how I will cope with out drinking or using, wiill i ever have a calm moment, will my head ever stop racing...I don't feel safe where i live, i don't feel safe anywhere really, but when i drink or use (i know its weird cause ur not "really" safe) but i feel safe...will i lose that as well, the sense of being safe.
I don't have the AA number, I can get the address from the place i go to my support worker but I don't have any local numbers, of any number.