I just made the call. I couldn't believe how hard it was. I dialed the phone to a local AA office and just sat there staring at it fow a minute before I hit the call button. I was so nervous I almost hung up the phone. When a man answered the phone I actually had a hard time speaking. He gave me info on a couple of meetings. One is actually only a couple of blocks from my house. I'm going to try and go to one tonight if I can come up with a reason to leave to house without my wife knowing where I'm going.