Just got seven months sober at the beginning of the month. I'm proud of myself. It's one thing for sure I know I'm doing right.
Worked late tonight and saw someone come through who I though was drunk...I wasn't certain. He had very slow and deliberate movements. I felt very grateful for being sober.
I traded some war stories with some of the other employees. Someone brought up some things so I added to the discussion. It may sound strange but I found that I could talk about bits of my miserable past and not feel bad about it...and not feel like I was missing out...and not feel like I want to use.
The person I was does not have to be me. I don't have to live that again. It was misery...and the negatives far outweigh any benefits.
I really appreciated having a clear mind tonight. It was comforting.
Over time things have been getting better. I'm calmer...I don't get as nervous. That feels really good.
I feel like I’m on the path to peace with myself.
I'm tired...I have to go to sleep...at least try.