Welcome Penny!
Yup, your story was my story as well.
It is going to be uncomfortable for a bit. Do you have a plan in place? Are you planning on working a recovery program or just gonna white knuckle it?
We are here for you, no matter how you decide to get sober. But I will offer that it is MUCH less painful if you have face to face support from folks who have been through it.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing!