Such a strange situation
I can honestly say that last week was my first real attempt to stop drinking. I was just motivated, and fatigued. My drinking on Friday was just as much a part of my quitting as the previous 5 days that I did not drink. Today I am more motivated. I believe this is a process that we have to go through. There are so many aspects of NOT drinking that are very exciting to me and motivating. The idea of continuing to drink is becoming very much a negative idea. Although, the addiction and compulsion are still there for now.
This seems to be such a strange situation, that in one minute, one can be 100% convinced that they do not want to and truly believe they will not drink again and the next minute fantasize about heading down to the bar and that fantasy if postively a fun idea and the 100% is no longer. And.. this happens many times a day... for me.