big book
I started reading the big book. Altough i'm not an alcoholic, I do have a very addictive personality, i can really really relate to what i've been reading so far
Self-knowledge will not suffice..
I always believed, the more I know about my own addiction personality, and addictive behaviour in general, I would be able to 'conquer' this disease.
It never worked.
God knows I tried every method there is, except for getting commited that is.
Nothing worked.
I've found online a 12-step workbook, so currently i'm taking my first step. My 'old' self still tells me every once in a while I don't need to do this, that I can beat this without the steps, but deep down I'm starting to realise i completely don't have any control watsoever.
day 3...had the worst of my detox...