D, I like the halfway in the tunnel idea. That's what it seems like, truly.
Just can't see myself being as happy as everybody with lots of time on this site, I suppose. Like it's for other people, just like happiness is for other people nowadays in my life.
I don't know. Sorry to jump in on your thread, FS. I been there where you're at too many times lately, and I really noticed that part about how it's different since trying to sober up. I been thinking about that a lot lately--like it's some evil Pandora's box I sometimes wish I'd never met.
And other times, I'm happy and on top of things, and that's the best feeling in the world, so I don't think about drinking or not drinking then. Then I fall, usually for no apparent reason.
Take care,
-TB