Do alcoholics feel guilt?
What hurts me the most is the lying to my face.
This has been a big week for me mentally.
I have come to the realization that whether it is a disease or not...he choses to drink. He choses to buy beer and hide it. He makes that choice. That was hard to accept. I think it was easier to think he had a disease and couldn't control it. But he can. That hurts that he willingly and knowingly choses beer over us.
I still can't get past the living in the NOW. How can he do what he does and the next day wake up and no sorries, no acknowledgement...just goes about his business?
It has been helpful learning about alcoholism, but at the same time disappointing.