I just wanted to welcome you.. if you need some instant support, come here and read, chat, whatever
I don't envy your situation, when I quit I had to enforce an alcohol free house.. but my husband isn't an alcoholic so it was no big deal.
I admire the strength I can read in your posts, and your determination. Remember the bigger picture here, how good it will feel, even just tomorrow.. when you wake up having succeeded, clear headed, ready to take on another wonderful day. And then Sunday you'll wake up.. even stronger.. and so on.
Glad you're here!