ashleek - I'll tell you something I heard a spoinsor telling his sponsee one night.
put your hand on your nose. the palm of your hand. on the end of your nose.
now:
everything that happens from the back of your hand - out....
is what you have no control over.
everything from the palm of your hand ... in
... is what you can control.
meaning -
I'd have probably moved if the smell bothered me.
but people come into meetings in all KINDS of states.
I had to learn early on
the my recovery
is the only one I am responsible for.
We've had people come in
and have to be walked out by 'oldtimers'
becasue they were SO drunk
no one else could share.
it's the ugly reality of the disease.
I know of another guy
claiming twenty two years sobriety
and he smokes pot every single day.
another guy 0-
I was a year sober and did his 12th step call with three others.
he piped up the other day
that he has FOUR YEARS sober.
-?-
is he counting DOGGIE years or what?
I 12 stepped the guy and *I* have only three years!
when I catch myself getting bothered about that ...
or them ...when their claims get on my nerves,,,
it's directly indicative of my OWN spiritual condition at the time.
the problem is me. the problem is always me.
hope that helps!
you're doing great!